Is it Really Safe to Let Go? I’m in Awe.
Two days ago I decided that for the next 30 days I was going to give myself full permission to be 100% guided by my intuition, and I’m already in awe.
I have been checking in semi regularly with my intuition in the form of the inner voice for years, strengthening that connection even more over the last year and a half.
My inner voice has been such a sweet resource for guidance, understanding, love, and joy, and I continue to check in often. But sometimes I can still get caught in the mind and second guess what I think I heard my inner voice say, especially when it comes to things I have a lot of mental activity around, outcomes I seem to be attached to.
Most recently, I’ve been working on honing my sacral response, which is my Authority in Human Design, and is a nonverbal bodily knowing in the now, which can be experienced in a variety of ways. (Check out your HD Authority on the Human Design page of this site.) For me, I’ve noticed a sacral yes feels expansive, while a no feels constrictive. A sacral yes is something I have energy for in the now, while I have no energy for a no. A sacral yes can sound like an “uh-huh” and a no like an “uhn-uh.” I’m still studying my own response and getting clear on how I can best make space for it to come through.
It’s my sacral response that I really want to zero in on these next 30 days. I want to fine tune that in the now guidance and really get to know how a yes feels in my being versus a no, and not second guess it so much. This experiment is a big uh-huh lol. I have energy for it and it feels expansive.
So on Tuesday (today is Thursday), I decided that’s the plan. 30 days of allowing myself to move through life in response with my Sacral Authority. I have the time and space at this moment in time and I’m going to take advantage of it.
I informed my mom of this plan that day, as it can be helpful as a Manifesting Generator to inform people who might be affected my decisions and actions. She was thankfully very supportive.
I knew I needed more help cultivating and tuning into this sacral response. I went back to all of my Human Design resources and I found some new ones. It’s one thing to have all the Human Design information, and another to start implementing it and practicing and experimenting.
Later that night, I received a marketing email from Maggie Ostara, which made me aware of her program called the Sacral Skills Lab, a three session deep dive into honing the sacral response. I lit up! It was something I could afford and it was starting in a couple days. Expansive! I had energy for it. It was a yes!
The next day, on Wednesday, I was listening to the new My Human Design podcast called, “You Can’t Think Your Way Into Alignment.” It was a fantastic episode, completely aligned with what I was needing. Then, imagine my surprise and delight when Jenna said something like, “What if we all take this month and promise we’re going to follow our strategies and authorities?” I yelled, “Girl!!!! That’s what I said I’m doing already!!!” at my phone in excitement. What alignment.
So far it’s really looked like allowing pleasure. Allowing rest. Allowing anything that my mind might usually judge if it doesn’t see it as productive. I also happen to have my period and had some of the worst cramps I’ve ever had during this cycle. I let myself do what I had energy for and what felt good, and didn’t make myself do anything else. I’ve been really trying to trust in the timing of things.
Today was my first Sacral Skills Lab. I learned some techniques to shift my awareness from the left brain logic to the right brain sensing and knowing. I learned how to ask the sacral better questions, and that’s it’s better to have someone else ask the questions, at least when you’re in the beginning stages.
We paired up to practice asking good sacral questions and feeling into our sacral responses. The topic on my mind that I wanted an answer to from my sacral was around a business program I’ve been enrolled in. Should I keep going? It’s a monthly subscription and I didn’t know if it was time to keep paying for it month to month or to take a break.
My practice partner asked, “Have you been enjoying the program?”
Me, eyes closed and smiling: “Uh huh.”
Partner: “Have you been benefitting from this program?”
Me: “Uh huh.”
It came up that the monetary investment was the reason I was second guessing this program right now.
Partner: “Is this program providing you with a lot of value?”
Me: “Uh huh.”
Partner: “Is it possible that this program can help you bring in the resources you need to fund it?”
Me: “Uh huh.”
And just like that, I was clear that this program is worth it and it’s helping me build the momentum I need. The mind was worried about resources, but my inner being was not. What peace.
When I got off of this Sacral Skills Lab call, I checked my email.
I had an email confirming my first sale of my seven session program, Freedom Foundation Flow. I was shocked. The resources were coming!
Is it this simple? If we clear out what’s stopping us from hearing and following our inner guidance, and we let our guidance drive the car and keep the mind comfy in the passenger seat, can we really just enjoy the ride? Sure, we still have to show up and do the work and serve each moment. But we don’t have to should all over ourselves, force things to happen, or act on any pressures. We can act in our own timing. We can enter the Flow of Life.
This is a concept/reality I’m obsessed with honing and living to the fullest and tonight I’m just in awe.
All of these words are flowing out so easily, I was so excited to share. Do I have the energy to edit this and make sure all my grammar and punctuation is correct? Uhn-uh. Do I have the energy to make it sound more poetic? Uhn-uh. Can I let it go out as is and stop shoulding on myself? Uh-huh. ◡̈
So excited to see what else flows and so grateful for this wonder.
